I can feel her breath as she's sleepin' next to me,
Sharing pillows and cold feet.
She can feel my heart, fell asleep to its beat,
Under blankets and warm sheets.

If only I could be in that bed again...
If only it were me instead of him...

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain?"
Does he do all these things, like I used to?

Fourteen months and seven days ago...
Oh, I know you know,
How we felt about that night.
Just your skin against the window...
Oh, we took it slow,
And we both know...
It should've been me inside that car.
It should've been me instead of him... in the dark.

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain?"
Does he do all these things, like I used to?

I know, love, (I'm a sucker for that feeling.)
Happens all the time, love, (I always end up feelin' cheated.)
You're on my mind, love, (or so that matter when I need it.)
It happens all the time- love, yeah.

Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like you're invincible with every word he'll say?
Can you promise me if this was right:
Don't throw it all away?
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things...
Like we used to?
Oh, like we used to...

yeaps like how we used to by a rocket to the moon, catchy lyrics, i loike :D fridayy AGAIN. and finals is just less then a month. thats creepy shitt. and im still having trouble waking up early in the morning. why god why?! back then i remember waking up at six in the morning for college. i need motivation to study, see if mom can help when i skype with her later.
have a goood day folks ! :)


why is my iPod repeating the same song when i have almost 700 over songs in my playlist?!okay that’s random.  and yes its spring break and im back blogging. did i mention that i was away in Auckland for a nine days winter trip?, mannn life was so goood. auckland could be the place i wanna settle down when I’m married, well again that’s just too early for me to mention about settling down.
rightt. Now back to where i belong, adelaide. Things aren’t the way they were before. ever since i broke up end of last year,  R told me, go live your life, and i remember asking how? and she said love your life before you love someone else. i did. i loved my life, my friends and almost everything i encountered in adelaide. K and K got together and i swear it was way beyond my expectation, i wasn’t told anything about this till i asked K out of curiosity. Well im happy for them , but the rest just dont seem to accept the fact that they are together. 
we shall see what happens and if this is gonna last.
then i thought about myself. When ever i skype with ma, pa, attai and chitti, they never fail to ask if im attached, and i remember telling them well maybe its just not the time yet....
K once asked if im interested in T, and i frankly told him HELL NO, i wasn’t having any feeling for anyone at that time. T's a friendly person, and she's one of the people i feel comfortable talking to....
told K what was happening these past few days when we had tanni session the other day. Till today i swear i dont know how i got back home. Hangover massive. Everyone was constantly asking me whats happening, apparently im pretty close to S and i told idk. im just going on with the flow and see where this ends. For now we shall be friends. Lets just go on with the flow.  Drama, i know but heck what to do, im yindian. ciao. X

considering tumblr. X
till then




Sometimes i wish that you were here and not where ever you are now. Sometimes you are the only person i want to talk to because everyone else pretends to understand and try to say what would seem comforting to help. But what would really help is you just being there for me. Not needing to say anything to comfort me. But just be there when i say i need you. Why are you not here when i need you? When i am lonely and sad, confused and miserable, where are you? If only you knew, how much i need you sometimes.

hello from adelaide 2

greetings from adelaide!
typing this script while enjoying the sun. life's good :)
new city,new people,new memories but the same old me.YES the SAME old me.
its been more than two months here and worst case, my very first birthday away from home. 
felt a little empty :(
owh well life has to go on but i had heaps of fun.picture's below.
despite being away from home, i have WONDERFUL people around me and yes they make me whole lot better.my SIBLINGS from another mother,always there when I need someone ;)
been exploring this town much, from the city all the way to the suburbs and yes surprisingly there's HINDU temple here in adelaide but again nothing beats MALAYSIA's temples.
i guess parents missing me much.mom calls almost everyday,just to ensure that im alright. owh well i miss my parents as well. try leaving in a city so far away from parental love and you will feel exactly what im going through. trust me,its ain't easy..
two weeks of break, im off to melb next week.
i need some good home cooked food and i need to learn how to cook as well.aunty's gonna gimme a crash course, hope that helps.
will update soon.

        Sunset at Hallet Cove 

  preparing VIETNAMESE roll for KJ"s farewell

        me birthday cake.

        happy birthday to me !


   mai's open house

p/s i had a dream and its not a good one.i just hope this one dream never come true.i miss my canbie buddie.yes,you ATTITUDE! when i see her next,imma go hug her like there;s no tommorow   :)

hello from adelaide.

boooo!its been a long time since i blogged.been busy adapting myself to the new environment and stuffs.owh well adelaide is a beautiful city i must say.its been a month here and yes time's flying.
food is indeed a problem here and worst case i dont know how to cook!
damnn been eating fried rice for the past few weeks,thank god i have a housemate who know how to cook.
classes started,well not so bad for the first two week,but yeah the worst is yet to come.
hitting gym in a bit.
will update soon.

p/s finally you moved on.you found someone else way better than me.im happy for you.god bless.



damnnn i've been sleeping late for these past few weeks.insomnia much.owh well.time is flying and i have like less than a month left but there is like heck alot of  unfinished task. its been more than 5 working days but where is my CoE? ;( i cant proceed with my med check up and visa application without my CoE. owh uni of adelaieee,please make it fast.owh yes, gym session is going on good and this would probably be my last month.

quickie updates.
1. getting a new phone (mom said yes,finally )
2. heading penang for thaipusam (1st time , 1st time )
3. visa.med check up.

p/s. mazhai peyum pothum,nanaiyathe yogaml,ithe yenna mayam,yaar seithatho.
       beautiful ! 



dear 2010,

           time flies and now you have already come to an end. im definitely gonna miss you and the life that i lived in 2010. it was not an easy ride for me but yeah, i survived. After going through the ups and downs,imma stronger mann NOW.i have learnt alot especially when it comes to love.ohh god, when i was single, i always wish that i had someone special in my life and when im in a relationship, i miss being single.like seriously.now its all over.fcuk the past but not the memories.im done with my pre U and its time for degree. yes im turning 20 this year.well its ok to be a year older but its depressing when ur age is 2 digits and the first digit is changing.LOL owh 2011, im looking forward to see whatcha got for me! be nice.

p/s you may think that im giving up.well i have nothing much to say because its definitely gonna be my fault again. yes i know im stubborn and im hard to please.i am who i am.you want me to say something?yes this is gonna go on for long.

niceeeee!i want that collection for my room =)


its about time.one more month to go and im off to australia.owh well hello peeps.its been awhile since i blogged.results were out on the 16th.everything was fine and way beyond my expectation as i dont think i did  well in my finals and merely hoping for my internal marks to pull me through.okay im done with SAM,Taylors and Subang Jaya.It feels good to be home.My own bed,air conditioner,broadband connection and most importantly paying back my sleep debt ;p imma happy kid! yeay me!

coming baby !



blackberry<3. iwan!


i was browsing through my notes on facebook and shetha tagged me on this note like months ago. It caught my interest and decided to repost it here.
try it out peeps! :)
Cross out what you've done.

graduated high school.
smoked a cigarette.
kissed someone.(apart from family)
gotten so drunk you passed out.
ridden every ride at an amusement park.
collected something really stupid(bottle caps)LOOL
gone to a rock concert.
helped someone.
gone fishing.
watched four movies in one night(3, yes!)
gone long periods of time with out sleep.
lied to someone.
snorted cocaine.
failed a class.
dealt drugs.
been in a car accident.
been in a tornado.
done hard drugs.
watched someone die. 
been to a funeral.
burned yourself.
run a marathon.
cried yourself to sleep.
spent over $200 in one day.
cheated on someone.
been cheated on.
written a 10 page letter.
gone skiing.
been sailing.
cut yourself. 
had a best friend.
lost someone you loved.
shoplifted something.
been to jail.
dangerously close to being in jail.(thanks to my CREWS).
had detention.
skipped school.
got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
stolen books from the library. 
gone to a different country.
dropped out of school.
been in a mental hospital.
watched the “harry potter” movies.
had an online diary.
fired a gun.
gambled in a casino.
had a yard sale.
had a lemonade stand.
actually made money at the lemonade stand.
been in a school play.
taken a lie detector test.
swam with dolphins.
gone to sea world.
voted for someone on a reality tv show.
written poetry.
read more than 20 books a year.
gone to europe.
loved someone you shouldn’t have.
used a coloring book over age 12.
had surgery( right foot metatarsal dislocated) 
had stitches.
taken a taxi.
seen the washington monument.
had more than 5 im’s/online conversations going at once.
had a drug or alcohol problem.
been in a fist fight.
suffered any form of abuse.
had a hamster.
pet a wild animal.
used a credit card.
gone surfing in california.
done “spirit day” at school.
dyed your hair.
gotten a tattoo.
had something pierced.
gotten straight a’s.
been on the honor roll.
known someone with hiv or aids.
taken pictures with a webcam(Duh!)
started a fire.
gotten caught having/going to a party while parents were gone.

hahaha i've soo many things. not bad.LOL

back on track

smile is the second best thing you can do with your lips.the best?go figure.hahahahahahahaa
well 2011 is just a month away and i've never thought this year could end so fast but again those memorable moments are still vivid and clear like it just happened yesterday.Im officially done with SAM(South Australian Matriculation) and now i gotta keep my finger's crossed hoping for a good outcome.if everything goes as per planned,i shall be leaving for Australia early next year which is like couple of months away.damn,eh you with the pretty smile, im gonna miss you.lol

p/s stop living in world of denial. egoism is so not welcomed in relationships.

till then, 

exams :)

Its has been so long since I've been updating here. I should update soon but time seems to run out everyday of my life. Anyways,I'm going to have my exams in two weeks time. Damn. I need to get myself prepared. But of course being me, I linger around doing nothing anyway. That's just me. I will only start when it is really really close to the day. haha.Time to change. Haih. I'll be making a very very big decision that will determine my future after this exam.its now or never ;)dad's famous line

Oh girl, my life is so complicated.
Anyways, I'll update more soon I promise :)

"You can always dream, and your dreams will come true, but you have to make them come true."
-Michael Jackson


hello world.
time and time again. its now or never.
last week of class and yes its saddest week. finals is just around the corner and the desire to sleep is way too high.
procrastination are my ultimate weakness but i gotta face these no matter what happens.
bless me people.
till then,


time machine wp Time Machine Screensaver for Mac OS X, Its Cool!

"If a tiger sleeps with a tornado and then their tiger-nado baby got married to an earthquake, their offspring would be Rajnikanth" - Grady Hendrix [The Middle East leading English language daily]




Now it's been about two months,
I never talked about you, because I fear...
Fear I might start thinking about how much I love you.
When I was with you for those 7 months,
I was in a fairytale in a thousand different ways.
Usually in the things I do,
it reminds me in some way of you.
Now that I think about it,
it seems you took me as a joke...
When I think about that, I choke.
Everything i said
were all true.
And yes I wrote poems for other girls too,
no need to lie.
But in a way they all revolved around you.
Listening to that one melody,
just about two weeks ago...
My bestie asked if I still loved you,
and I couldn't let my feelings show.
And I don't know why... so I said no.
But I still do!
'cause when you love someone,
you never stop loving them even if we are not together.
truth hurts.

and you!
I want a proper hug, not any of that 1 arm crap !;)



♥Judge me and I'll prove you wrong.
♥Tell me what to do, and I'll tell you off.
♥Say I'm not worth it and watch where I end up.
♥Call me a bastard and I'll show you one.
♥Fuck me over and I'll do it to you twice as bad.
♥Call me crazy, but you really have no idea. ;)

owh your smile ;)

taj mahal;)


what a day.
watched ENDHIRAN in pavilion today.went with my cousin and his gang.
55 of us and yes we conquered the theater that night.it was three hour movie.
cousin parked the car in some government owned building parking space.
and guess what the parking space was closed when we left pavilion at 12 and we roamed around bukit bintang looking for the office.
thank god the security guard was around and bribed him 20bucks to get into the parking space,
drove back all the way to subang and had dinner,cum supper somewhere in sunway.
reached casa at 2.
the movie was nice and it was way beyond my expectation.
must watch!
hats off. ENDHIRAN.

off to bed.
good night world.
p/s i cry because crying isn't showing weakness, its showing that I've been strong for too long.

the life

sometimes the world around you is mean, the environment, the people and even your own feelings is against your thoughts.you feel helpless as you have no one to back you up when you fall. the loved ones you used to have in your life has now drifted away from you. well at this point all you can do is to take responsibility of what happened and put the blame on yourself. maybe at times your should allow time to heal your wounds because you should know that you can never glue those broken pieces all by yourself.time's flying and you have not much time left to make changes. built up your resilience and yes you will be able to bounce back. have faith in yourself because when everyone else is ignorant you know that GOD is always there for you. dont give up,sharveen :) 


Sometimes, it feels like flying. Sometimes, well, sometimes you just fall. Hard. The thing is, you don't die. You'll be left to experience the aftertaste of the fall. You'll have to stay there like an idiot, and let the pain torment you. Move, and you'll break every bones you have left in your body. That's a terrifically lousy situation to be in, if you ask me.i cant wait to end this pain :(

i badly need a hug! 
Sometimes, it feels like flying.

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reblogged from asmeeta :)

shades :(

i lost my shades in the train otw back to kl sentral from ipoh,
its priceless, and i badly want it back.
gotta get a new one as soon as possible :)
no shades, no walkin under the sunn :P

p.s. omg i cant believe i accutally skipped class today! fark.


a quote that i strongly hold onto:

Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is of little love:)

somehow when someone fails to practice all this, that means they fail to comprehend the true meaning of love, hence they are not eligible to utter the divine,beautiful word because it would be fake.it would be pretentious at least to me it would be. and something that is fake, holds no value. its as if a silver ring is trying to pretend to be gold. and that can never happen.

and if someone cant love like how the quote states above, that means that person cant love at all.
and that means he or she isnt worth your time.

think about it:)


today is going to be a good day. why?
because i said so. toodles.i'll blog later at night :)

off to bed now.
omg its 3 o'clock in the morning!
byeeeeeee :)


old times

was so bored and too lazy to study.i have time to FACEBOOK but no time to seriously sit down and face the book. LOL.onlin-ed through my computer instead of my laptop and guess what i found? old pictures.

this picture was taken when i was in form 3.
even before i had my braces on.i miss that smile, that hairdo and that life :(
dear GOD, when can i have my smile back?
*cant wait to remove this metal thingy off my teeth .

owh yeah that shirt, guess what? i still have it in my closet.
weeeeee :D

till then :)


woke up late today because parents were not around in the morning.was too lazy to study so decided to watch movie.MADRASAPATINAM(not so sure with the spelling). awesome movie laaaa. aarya shaved his beard in this movie and the heroine is a white chick,amy jackson. she's effin cuteee. just love the way she impresses aarya. this movie actually proves that language is never a barrier when it come to matters of heart.the songs are pretty good.kinda touching. i like this song clip. watch this


hello world.
When i really want something, sometimes i have to swim a little deeper
I just cant give up because things don't come easy
Its my life so I have to overcome the obstacles and face my fears all by my own.
In the end I just hope it all worth while.
Life's been way of line and its full of ups and down.
Im still hanging on coz i still believe in myself and I know I will always come through with flying colurs...
well its now or never.
i gotta stay strong.
bless me,GOD.

true facts about malaysians

1. You can name all the players from the the English Premier League, but ask you to name one football player from Malaysia , one name also cannot come out.

2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.

3. When toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.

4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there’s SALE , run from one end of 1Utama to the other also NO COMPLAINTS.

5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you’re late is always either: (a) traffic jam (b) no transport or (c) cannot find parking.

6. You have a parent who force you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce.

7. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.

8. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queueing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.

9. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.

10. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.

11. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians.

12. When a Chinese or Indian student won a scholarship, you say “Wah! Very clever ah?” When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say “Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!”

moot court

moot court was hell fun.being judge was indeed an awesome experience.all i need to do is just listen,listen,listen and on the last day deliver my judgement.HAHA. and the best part is everyone bows when i walk in the court room.but the sad part of is that , this is my last class assignment. trials coming up/ time to study ! imyoursmile :P


jenny :)

She calls me baby, then she won't call me.
Says she adores me and then ignores me.
Jenny, what's the problem?
She keeps her distance and sits on fences.
Puts up resistance and builds defenses.

Jenny, what's the problem?
You leave me hanging on the line.
Every time you change your mind.

First You say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny, it's killing me.

She needs her own space. She's playing mind games.
Ends up at my place saying that she's changed.
Jenny, what's the problem?
I'm trying to read between the lines.
You got me going out of my mind. 

First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny, it's killing me. It's killing me. It's killing me.

First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.

First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny. It's killing me. It's killing me. Jenny.


you.stop asking me those kinda questions.please,im tired.i need a break from all this.why cant u understand.ur literally killing me.respect my decision for once.thank you.

like this

this picture is taken by jagmeet :)
she's so into photography, and this is one of her master piece :P
cantik kan?
okay,off to bed.
nights, people.


  1. LOVE :)
  2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
  3. A hot shower.
  4. No lines at the mall when youre in a rush.
  5. A special glance.
  6. When everythings works out okay
  7. Taking a drive on a pretty and quiet road.
  8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
  9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
  10. Hot towels out of the dryer.
  11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
  12. Chocolate caramel milkshake. :)
  13. Sleeping with a long and comfy t-shirt :)
  14. A bubble bath.
  15. Giggling. :)
  16. A good conversation.
  17. At the beach with your loved ones
  18. Finding an RM 10 in your jeans.
  19. Laughing at yourself
  20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
  21. Singing with your hairbrush in the bathroom.
  22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
  23. Having someone tell you that you're good looking
  24. Laughing at an inside joke.
  25. Friends.
  26. Loving someone unconditionally
  27. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
  28. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
  29. Kissing
  30. Making new friends or spending time with the old ones.
  31. Playing with pet.
  32. Late night talks with your best buddie that keeps you from sleeping.
  33. Having someone play with your hair.
  34. Sweet dreams.
  35. Hot chocolate.
  36. Road trips with friends.
  37. Swinging on swings and seeing who can go the highest.
  38. Watching a good movie cuddled up on a couch with someone you love.
  39. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies.
  40. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
  41. Going to a really good concert.
  42. Getting butterflies in your stomach every time you see that one person.
  43. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
  44. Winning a really competitive game.
  45. Making remarks on someone you love
  46. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
  47. Spending time with them close ones
  48. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
  49. Holding hands with someone you care about.
  50. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
  51. Alcohol :P
  52. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
  53. Hugging the person you love.
  54. Watching the expression someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
  55. Watching the sunrise.
  56. That feeling you get when you walk into kuil.
  57. Having friends you know you can cry on or talk to about your deepest problems
  58. Passing up that assignment you sat up all night finishing with a wide smile :)
  59. knowing someone thinks of you.
  60. Oreos dipped in cold milk.
  61. Splashing in puddles
  62. Getting drunk and waking up the next morning with no memory of the shit you did ;)
  63. Skin Tight Jeans
  64. Licking chocolate cake batter off the mixers :)
  65. Falling asleep again after being woken up too early
  66. Sleeping through a boring lessin hugging your best hoodie
  67. Stroking a cute cat :)
  68. GOOGLE! 
  69. Getting caught for eating in class.
  70. Walking out proudly from a boring lesson with a fucked up teacher :)
  71. Dancing on podiums :)
  72. Spending time with her knowing there's the whole day ahead :)
  73. Skinny dipping at night.
  74. Getting the best hugs :)
  75. Getting good grades after studying your ass off :)
Re blogged from kerrthy =)